Weekend !

Friday night started with a few drinks 🙈 just what I needed after feeling ill for so long.

Remember where I parked 😂

Then on Saturday I went to our Pokémon Go community day. It’s the first time I’ve been kid free and able to go.

I will be there at everyone that has been confirmed so far.

First I meet up with people and had breakfast and hair of the dog 👌 I was a little rough from the night before.

While walking with someone we noticed a 100% IV one and when I clicked on it….

It was shiny !!!! A legit 100% shiny .

The whole day was such a laugh. Everyone was in great spirits and we couldn’t have had a better time.

Then was time to pick up the kids ♥️

We did some homework & some gaming .

Then on Sunday we had a Ex raid ….

My Pokémon luck continued!!!!

I visited my gran and the boys and I did some cooking .

Now Aiden & I are chilling watching some buffy 👌 To finish off our weekend .



Mental Health Awareness Day.


It’s never been easy to fully explain what’s been going on in my head. Especially when there a judgemental people out there.

I’ve been open with a lot of people over the last year’s about how my anxiety affects me . I’ve talked on here about the different therapys I have taken part in one of witch lead me to writing this blog.

Now people will try and talk you down. Try and diagnos you themselves. If you don’t suffer as much as they think they do then you should just “get over it”.

You see that’s the thing. Mental health effects people in different ways . Some of us are more self aware and are proactive taking steps to cope and live a “normal” life.

These steps I post as I’ve tried to follow them for ask long as I can remember.

1.Talk about your feelings.

At the start I found it very difficult to express myself and explain what I was going through. I didn’t like the judgment and that’s why I started this blog. At least I was able to vent my frustrations and express my true feeings.

2.keep Active.

Now this one is massive for me and something I can be to focused on. Partners & friends would want to sit around the house and chill. This drives me crazy when I no I’m having a bad day. I need to be out I need to be doing something.

Also the gym and exercise is great as it realiases endorfens that make the brain tell you “well done” and at least for a little while you will feel good.

3.Eat Well.

Its so easy when you are low to let this slide. You ain’t got the energy to cook so you snack or you ring up a take away.

Ive always enjoyed cooking and sometimes i have to push myself. I find I enjoy it more cooking for loved ones. It gives me more motervation.

4. Drink Sensibility.

This one is major , because usually the hangover is the worst. It’s not just a hangover as we know it but it is an emotional one too. Alcohol also has a was of bringing up your demons to the serfice too.

5. Keep in touch.

Ive got to say I’m really bad at this when I am low. As my friends say ” he’s gone off raidar” it is important to let people know you okay or that your not okay but you will be. If that makes sense ?

6. Ask for help.

This is a Biggie and I suppose it’s linked with step 1. It’s okay to ask for help . It’s okay to be honest with yourself.

7. Take a break .

Man I did this last night. It felt great. I just go in from work wrapped myself up with snacks and blankets and binge watched a show. I’ve been ill now for a while after the bi-opsi and quite tired so resting was important.

8. Care for others.

My kids mean the world too me. I would do anything for them. They keep me fighting because I see how everything could and has effected them. When I’ve been at my lowest point when I’ve been over that edge the one thing that stops me falling is them. I don’t understand people with children who could go over that edge. It’s selfish . However that’s my opinion and until you have lived in someone else’s shoes you can’t understand there motive.

9. Do something your good at.

I spent a lot of time trying to convince people I cared about who struggled to do something like that. “Do some drawings there awesome , you could sell them” . I didnt take any time for me is mssive for me playing it especially and I was shut away from it for so long. I’m glad I’m back to playing .

10. Accept who you are.

Ive done this along time. I’ve also accepted that it may be who I am today but I could be smomeone completely different tomorrow. In a good way . Grow and not be stuck.


Apparently.. You don’t realize how much TV you watch until you fill this out. Put a heart by the shows you have watched more than 10 episodes of, two hearts if you’ve seen all episodes: You can copy this, remove my hearts and share your own
Grey’s Anatomy:
Stranger Things:♥️♥️
The Vampire Diaries: ♥️
New Magnum PI:♥️
Seal team:
The Walking Dead:♥️♥️
American Horror Story:♥️
Orange is the New Black:♥️
A Million Little Things:
Making A Murderer:
Breaking Bad:♥️♥️
The Good Doctor:
House of Cards:
Once Upon Time: ❤♥️
True Detective:♥️♥️
Dr. Pimple Popper:
One Tree Hill: ❤
Supernatural: ❤
Family Guy:♥️♥️
Santa Clarita Diet:
Pretty Little Liars:♥️
Secret Life of an American Teenager:
Criminal Minds:♥️♥️
This Is Us:
The 100:
Game of Thrones:♥️♥️
The Big Bang Theory:♥️♥️
It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia:
Lost: ❤❤
NCIS: (original)♥️
NCIS: (LA)♥️
Gossip Girl:
How I Met Your Mother:♥️♥️
Blue Bloods:
The Simpsons: ❤️♥️
Two Broke Girls:
13 Reasons Why:
Twilight Zone:♥️
The Office:♥️♥️
Fuller House:
New Girl:
Sons of Anarchy:♥️♥️
The Originals:
Chicago P.D.:
Chicago Med:
Chicago Fire:
Hawaii five-0:
Friends: ❤❤
True Blood: ❤
CSI(Original, NY):♥️
When Calls The Heart:
Last Kingdom:
Iron fist:♥️♥️
Blind spot:
Mr. Robot♥️
Battlestar Galactica (Original):♥️
Battlestar Galactica (New):♥️
Star Trek (Original):♥️♥️
Star Trek TNG:♥️♥️
Star Trek DS9:♥️♥️
Star Trek Voyager:♥️♥️
Star Trek Enterprise:♥️♥️
Into the Badlands:
Hell on Wheels:
West Wing:
Northern Exposure:
Happy Days:
Laverne & Shirley:

– I’m adding a Few Of Mine –


Buffy the vampire slayer:♥️♥️

Angel: ♥️♥️

Better Call Saul:♥️♥️

South park:♥️


Everyone should copy and paste this and do it on there blog. Add your own too the end as well.

Comment and let me know if you have done i I will check it out. ✌️


Last year was a very lonely & uneventful birthday for me.

I didn’t even get a card from the person who was supposed to care about me.

Instead I spent the time planing a suprise . What a waste.

This year however I have my family all under one roof . We’ve had a good day and we will again tomorrow.

Im so greatful for everything and everyone that has been in my life . I’ve had some truly amazing moments & memories. I’ve learnt some harsh lessons too.

Im proud of so many people too people I will always care about who are showing strength and achieving so much.

Keep it up.


some people I have meet have been so inspiring when I have talked or more importantly listened.

I had a lot of respect for people going out on there own. Getting everything right putting themselves in to debt to make sure that a house is ready and right.

Putting other people before them.

I always try and say yes to as much as I can. I always go out of my way to offer to help people or suprise them with things they like.

Put myself in halms way to make sure someone is okay.

I remember the two people that I pulled from the bridge how they knew what they wanted . No hesitation . Not seeing if anyone noticed just jumping strait over. Wasnt a cry for attention it was real. It was scary and one of the most emotional times of my life.

I often think about them . Wondering if they are okay . Did they get the help they needed or worse.

I had a neighbor who attempted many times to kill himself. He covered my mam & I in blood when he slut his wrists …

One day we found out he had killed himself. Thrown himself down a stair well. All his family said was ” he eventually managed to get what he wanted” as though that was helping them to deal .

I think about these people all of the time.

We Won’t Stand For ….

So sick, so sick of being tired.
And oh so tired of being sick.
We’re both such magnificent liars.
So crush me baby, I’m all ears.
So obviously desperate, so desperately obvious.
I’ll give in one more time and feed you stupid lines all about “cleaning up my act…”

We won’t stand for hazy eyes anymore.
We won’t stand for hazy eyes anymore.
We won’t stand for hazy eyes anymore.
We won’t stand for hazy eyes anymore.

So sick, so sick of being tired.
And oh so tired of being sick.
Willing and ready to prove the worst of everything you said about.
So obviously desperate, so desperately obvious.
So good at setting bad examples.
Listen, trick, I’ve had all I can handle.

We won’t stand for hazy eyes anymore.
We won’t stand for hazy eyes anymore.
We won’t stand for hazy eyes anymore.
We won’t stand for hazy eyes anymore.

Think of all the fun you had.
(We won’t stand for hazy eyes anymore)
The finest line divides a night well spent from a waste of time.
(We won’t stand for)
Think of all the days you spent alone with just your T.V. set and I
(We won’t stand for hazy eyes anymore)
I can barely smile
(We won’t stand for)

Let’s go
He’s smoked out in the back of the van
(We won’t stand for hazy eyes anymore)
Says he’s held up with holding on and on and on and on and on
He’s smoked out in the back of the van
(We won’t stand for hazy eyes anymore)
Says he’s held up with holding on and on and on and on and on

Absolute feels.