No More Hurt.

Screw it you can’t live your life like this…We no this. So why do we?

Depends on the day for me I like to make the effort to take chances most of the time but it sure as hell is scary.

The problem is getting hurt the more it happens dosent seam to toughen me up just makes me more worried for the next hurt round the corner.

But fuck it I must be a gluten for punishment.

Tierd.

You no I’m sick of being alone and I’m sick of making the effort getting involved and finding myself back alone.

It’s a repeating pattern . It’s a shitty one. 

The worst part is falling in love with people who don’t love you .

You see I never seam to have a clue when this is happening. The last relationship was a big one for me.
Meeting new people seams like such a effort but I’m trying I don’t no how much trying I’ve got left in me.

2 Year Blog Anniversary ! How & Why I Started ….

So two years ago my life was falling apart….Well at least that’s how it felt.

I had been in a relationship for over three years and in the end it imploded. Mainly because both of us had fell out of love with each other.

It caused tit for tat arguments and more survere ones too. The good days however made you convince yourself the rest of the shit was worth it.

In reality it isn’t.

This caused me to go into the worst spiral of anxity ups and downs I have ever had.

Luckley for me I had a very supportive friend who’s house moreorless became mine for about a month maybe more.

I will always be great full for that.

( Me on the left , Alex my friend on the right )

I was pretty down and ended up in one on one counciling again.

This time it was suggested that I joined a writing therapy group.

It was run buy a lovely lady and the group was all lady’s . 

Each week we did various exercises writing about our issues and talking about what we had written to the group . 

Then I had a idea …

I started to write a blog. I used quotes that I thought ment something to me and wrote about what feelings it brought up.

And on days I couldn’t bring myself to write about that I wrote about anything. Made my own funny lists , reviewed music , talked about films whatever got my mind of my anxiety.

Then the most amazing thing happened….

You guys started following , commenting and liking in the hundreds. I didn’t feel alone e anymore. Reading like-minded blogs reafermed this .

So that’s how it began. Want to no more ? A summary of the rest of the two years ? Let me no in the comment section and I may do it with enough requests.

Peace and love ✌️

James.