The last 24 hours have been so hard so mentally challanging and on about 2 Hours sleep.
After I left Sam with her mates. She continued to message me she was going to walk home from.where she was early morning.
There is no way I would let her ever do that because I care about her so fucking much.
Even though I was upset I didn’t no where I stood did she still not want to be with me ?
I had to make sure she was safe.
I got her back to hers and tried to be distant and get her to bed safely and leave. She wanted me I didn’t feel like I could do anything incase when she sobered up would have regretted it.
It’s killed me.
It killed her.
Then it happened we both talked we both seen eachother in a park with the kids and it was like nothing had happened. Looking into her beautiful blue eyes I new no matter what shit we will go through we will come out stronger.
I wouldn’t keep fighting for someone I don’t love and I’ve never felt a love like this .