So I forgot to mention in the last blog I also weighed myself the results….
There’s two horrible things here… My feet & my weight . Unfortunately there is only one thing I can change….my weight.
So today is my second bash at the gym although the top of my legs are hurting I had the urge to just get back at it.. why not yeah?
Just take it easy I thought.
So decided to start my intivel training again and begin with a easy one with my legs already hurting.
Half way in I started to get very cocky and began to push …
I gumped it went as fast as I could forgetting it was my short run and I only had less then 60 seconds to cool down… So I entered stitch city. Just in time for my final 3minute run.
I pushed myself to my fastest and heled it for the three minutes couldn’t believe it !
I was however done in !
Now time to go home for a weigh in …will anything have changed…prob not 😂👌
Just a quick shout out to my followers. Love you all appreciate the likes , follows and the views.
Keep smiling and if your feeling bad…write about it.
A rare night for me when I feel content looking forward to sleep listing to a bit Karl Pilkington ✌️
So I’ve done a few fitness diarys on here and guess what…here’s another.
I suppose when I look at myself all I see is a over weight not as young looking as I feel sack of shit.
Harsh but true. I suppose all that’s left for me to do is change that myself.
Last time I had a successful weightloss was using weight burners to assist.
This time I am using this one . It is to be taken up to three times a day with food. I am taking it just twice daily and trying to add exercise aswell.
Is this cheating probably…
So I went to the gym after work.
I couldn’t believe that I managed to run 5K at my first session back. I suppose I can always say I have good stamana and thats probably from drumming.
This is so true about relationships . I new my last one was falling apart and I tried to do everything in my power to stop it happing. It was too late.
I do look back we were happy for the most part…well I was.
I also look back though and realize it wouldnt work. Those reasons are personal but I have had time to assess and move on.
Do I miss her. Hell yeah but it wouldn’t work…would it…no course it wouldn’t.
I find myself trying to explain myself a lot, I think those with Anxiety often do. We have to because we are programmed to fuck up once and a while.
It’s not easy to explain the things we have done or why.
Most of the time we can’t explain it to ourselves.
All I try and tell people is that I’m carrying and I’m.always planning for the worst case sinario.
I seam to go through a lot of struggles daily and this is usually caused by my over thinking for sure.
It becomes like a statick energy waiting to explode.
It’s 10pm here and quite early and I feel…relaxed. I am looking forward to putting on a Karl Pilkington pod cast and falling asleep.
I realised something today 6 weeks ago I stopped drinking energy drinks. I kicked a habit. There has been days I could murder on but I did it.
I’m loosing weight because of it.
So I struggled with that but now I no that I can make changes to my life even if they are small I just got to focus up!
Well this is going to be harder that I thought… Jesus .
So far I’ve gone one night with out masterbating and woke up now with a erection that won’t quit. 😂
I have no idea what the benefits are going to be from this but just that I can do it. I can’t got 40 days and night without sex or masterbating.
Suppose I’m going to blog a lot like this when I have the urge.
Let me no in the comment section if you think I’m mad 😂😂