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Crazy : Part 2

After the last blog titled crazy where I talked about how people have tried to use my blog against me I thought I can’t let it stop me blogging so…..

Someone made a massive difference in my life and everyday they are on my mind.

I have moments that mean something to me but mean little sharing it with no one.

I have dreams where I wake up near someone i love for that to come tearing down when I wake up.

My thoughts are always drawn there it’s inescapable.

I love . I hurt.

Awesome….

What a fun day yesterday was ! I connected with someone who I shouldn’t have become distant with but pressures from someone I cared about caused it.

Now it feel like we are supporting eachother again and that is awesome.

It ment however that for this month’s community day I was knackered .

I got 11 shinys cane away with this beast….

I walked around with about 10 of my closest friends and we laughed and talked all the way round . It’s become becoming again one of my favourite events.

No one can stop me enjoying it.

Im sure it was someone’s favourite or one of there favourite PokΓ©mon , hope they got some.

So it’s Sunday and it’s freezing lucky I’ve been house sitting with possibly of moving in with the boys once my mate goes traveling. You can really crank up the heating it’s like a little sweat box πŸ˜‚

But it’s making me think twice about doing something today πŸ€”

Was going to go for a walk but might be too cold for the boys. Ooooo maybe the pictures instead !

Crazy…..

This is so true! I’ve found some interesting things out over the last week that are actually on a hole new level.

You see people have tried too look at my blogs and my life and try to pigeon hole me into a disorder or hope that I would fit neatly into a box making there life easier to pass judgement.

The truth is. As most of my long time followers will no I do not have a diagnosed mental condition . Never have and have never seeked help until recently.

I have however had very close relationships with people with mental health issues and have actually been a long time carer for one. So to say I understand and sympathize would I think be a understatement.

“Is he obsessive ?”

“Does he have two personally types?”

“Is he OCD?”

“Is he a loner?”

Honesty some real crack attempt at analysing someone hoping to god you would get lucky and there would be evidence of that. Bingo! Oh no false call πŸ˜‚

The best thing out of this at the moment is my friendships are getting stronger and restoring with people. The help and support they give is unbelievable and things I’ve seen and can use are going to be really good help.

So once again I shall sleep well. Feeling very good at the moment .

Of course dosent mean that I don’t love or hurt. I’m just used to the hurt now.

Settled.

What a great Day. Im still buzzing from last night. It was just a dream come true .

God I regretted it this morning. Nearly didn’t get to work my phone battery had died and I only woke up because I rolled onto my glasses !

Had to get a taxi to work after staying out πŸ™„ and my car was left at home.

So on way home I got a train it was so relaxing I was fighting sleep.

Oh and I had a weathespoons and just chilled. Now though I am definitely ready to sleep. I think I should sleep well tonight !