Oh you do love me ? Are you sure…..
See sometimes I have a lot of doubts about how people feel about me. My family , my friends and my partner.
I often don’t feel like I deserve any of them.
I wonder how she could love me / put up with me. Sometimes I can be sensitive about the littlest thing and it’s because I’ve already thought of 10+ negitive things about the statement you have made.
For example ” You really are a dick”
You see if this is character flaw bassed or something I don’t do. You can bet I’ve already been aware and beaten myself up in my head for months about it. Then when.you say it , it then feel 10x worse because you agree . It isn’t just in my head.
We had a little falling out lastnight over something I don’t do..something I’m aware of. What pissed me off is why haven’t I don’t anything about it before . I know I should be doing it . So what did I do . Took it out on the person that matters the most to me.
We made up and I couldn’t be happier about that.
I try to do little things to show her I care. I’ve switched of from.romance a long time ago but with her I want to show her how much I care. Not felt like this before.
I’ve been becoming a better person in a lot of ways by being around her. Seeing her kind hearted ways.
She lies here next to me now snoring in the cute way she does . I love it. I love her.
And I’m finishing this blog so I can go cuddle into her.
Brain is wired tonight tho so not sure if I’m.gonna sleep but I’m.going to enjoy the comphat of lying next to the person that means the most to me.