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Anxiety Stop Kicking My Ass!

I seam to be kicking my ass over and over the same shit recently.

Just not really felt very positive about myself or the impact I have on other people.

I am often finding myself down the negitive side of anxiety when you think all the worries and all the bull shit is because I’m broken and why the fuck can’t I fix it ?

At the moment I am having a lot of support from my partner even though she dosent seam to realise. Sometimes just being able to enjoy the peace of cuddling into her and watching something and letting myself relax is the best feeling in the world.

I never and I mean never feel like that.

Also been able to talk to her and even making long calls (normally calls freak me out )

So time to move the fuck on with life. Put this worry and doubt behind me and continue to stay strong.

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Healthy At Work

Some steps I hope can help keep you mentally stable while working. 

Works important right ? It brings in the Benjamin’s !!

1. Go Home On Time.

Sounds pretty basic right. The end off the day your better of home with your loved ones and doing things that bring you joy tham staying longer than you need to in a sometimes stressful environment.

2.Take A Lunch Break.

It really follows along the lines of step one. When your working hard you deserve a break a rest bite to get back on your feet. That’s why it’s called a break. Even if it’s fifteen minutes in the fresh air it’s important to take time to clear your head.

3. Set Realistic Deadlines.

Now this can be a harder one as your Deadlines are not always in your control. Or up to you to set. However most bosses will have to agree to do this as they have a slight duty of care especially if they want a good performance from there staff. stand your ground.

4. Take Your Holidays.

It’s important to take time off. Go on vacation if you can . Spend some of that hard earned cash on yourself. It can’t all be work , bills ,work and bills enjoy yourself . Which brings me too the last step.

5. Allocate time for things you enjoy.

I think it is essential to take time to enjoy a hobbies or a social activity regularly outside off work. I myself enjoy playing music others I no are creative in other ways outside of work. It can also be as simple as spending time with friends and loved ones. Or even taking time to just sit chill and watch the world float by. 
Do you agree with my list ? Any suggestions ? Let me no in the comment section.

Stay Positive.

So for those who do not follow my blogs I took to blogging mainly to have free expression and coincide with my anxiety.

Man it fucking helped 🙂

You guys helped me ! For that I am forever grateful.

For a year I struggled . I couldn’t sleep , nights were the worst.

I took to listing to pod casts that made me smile on a night (manky Karl Pilkington) and threw here found that many other people do the same.

My job was hard . I changed from a soulles job of tell marketing to being a chef. Both jobs with different types of stress but this was the type I could manage.

Also I could have more interaction with Co workers as in a call center. You obviously can not talk while taking calls for 7 hours !!

The only thing was I found myself very lonely. After the self implosion that was my last relationship I had become a little numb to other people.

People were interested , but I just couldn’t make that connection and often feeling awkward & out of my depth.

Then something great & definitely scary happened. I met Amy. We connected pretty quickly and she could actually hold a conversation threw messages (yes online dating ! ) 

There was competition however with another girl who’s opening message read ” hi you seam cool. I have type two diabetes and can’t drive hope that doesn’t bother you.” How could I resist that ?

So it’s crazy. She gets me I can tell. I don’t have to try and be something I’m not.

I feel comfortable to share anything with her . Completely honest.
So my life is on the up and I wanted to share it with you guy because you’ve been here threw the worst of it. You’ve shared your experiences and offered positive words.

If your having a hard time off it . Keep your head up , keep strong and remember you are awesome , it’s just a bad day.

Things get better.

Holiday !! Turkey Day 1 & 2

So my friend invited me to go on holiday with him to his Villa in Turkey.

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How could I say no?

So before we new it holiday time was here. Our bags were packed and we were ready to go.

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( Me , Nick & Alex.)

Our flight made good time and when we touched the tarmac our bags nearly beat us off the plane.

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We were getting picked up buy a taxi guy called Yusif . Two minutes in and I wondered if he was training for some sort of rally. As we crossed from one lane to the other the scenery was stunning and that was threw the night.

Alex & I ended up staying awake the whole night watching the sun rise from a balcony over looking our pool.

Day 1 .

So after a quick 30 min snooze it was time to walk to the local village time to get some lunch.

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As you can see around the Villa is beautiful. Every house is different and they all fit together like a patchwork.
Every garden has some sort of food growing in it and chickens are roaming everywhere.

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15min down the road and we were heading to the Cadianda . A lovely relaxed bar / restaurant.

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I decided to try the Turkish pizza .

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It was tasty . Seriously tasty. Beef ,cheese ,mushroom and egg. I thought egg would be strange . I was wrong . It held it all together.

Now it was time to head back to the Villa so Alex & I could catch up on our sleep.

We had came across a learn Turkish book. It had a very random section.

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This as you could imagine provided us with a great laugh as I hope it does for you reading.

After my well needed nap it was time to head to Eddie’s bar. 2 min walk from our Villa.

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They had obviously heard we were coming as the kegs came rolling in…

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Eddies really is a friendly place. You pick that up in the atmosphere strait away.
We Decided to give the menu a look as it was definitely time to eat and we were comfortable. We did not expect the food to be as good as it was. Usually something’s got to give.

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Nick & I were very jealous of Alex’s vegetarian stir fry . The flavours coming out the pot were beautiful.

That night end with a few white Russians in the Villa and a game of top trumps…

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Day 2.

I decided that I would get up early and have a wander . Take some photos

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Here are some of the shots I’ve taken around the village close to the Villa.

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We spent most of the day buy the pool falling off liylos and playing water polo.

We popped into the village to get some meat for a BBQ and ended up back at Eddies .

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It was not long before we were talked into taking part in the quiz night.

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We Ended Up having sever drinks….and then some . It was a fun time the pub was bizzy and the atmosphere once again was great.

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Girl Gamers ?

So here’s the thing .. I’m a geek. I’m proud whatever. I am who I am and I like what I like. The problem however it used to be a little bit alienating. Often the odd one out in a group.

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There was however plenty of dudes that liked to play video games. Usually you went round to the house of the friend with the game console after school , not the guy with the new action man.

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This was great until we started getting older and having strange feelings towards Lara croft.

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Now the problem with being a geek was that there really was no gaming girls out there like literally none. So would none gaming / geeky girls want to come round yours hold hands and play metal gear solid….

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It was a bleak time.

Now if we fast forward to today there are plenty of gaming girls … Or at least girls that will put on a tight fitting leotard and charge for auto graphs.

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Now this was my view , but hold the phone I’ve just been hit with some random facts that could turn things round . Fingers crossed.

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So this is the first year in the UK were there are more girl gamers than dudes.
Does this mean more geek girls flooding our streets. Sadly I think not as the majority are gaming on there phone. It just means more candy crush requests on facebook!!

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Let’s face it if there were geek girls a plenty , I’d have one buy now right…

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Do you agree with this article ? Let us no ? Are you a gamer girl ? What do you play ?