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Exhausted.

This it so true right now.

I feel lonely a lot of the time at the moment and it’s something I’ve always stressed about. 

I’m 30 I have two kids and I want to share my life with someone. I had horrible break ups . I don’t no if I’ve got the strength to try again and if I do I’m not meeting anyone any time soon.

I seam to be stuck in a cycle at the moment. I can almost feel my anxiety bubbling under the surface ready to explode . 

I am for the most part controling it.

Work has been rough recently too lots of changes and things just generally going tits up.
I look forward to my sleep. Listing to my podcasts as I drift off….

Community‚Äč. #Trigger Warning#

This image has really got me tonight.

My life feels a bit down the drain at the moment feel like I’m going threw the motions have I felt suicidal no… But I find it hard to realise when I am. I get close but I could never leave my kids.

When I’ve been close to jumping I’ve thought about them. Thoughts of them are what hold me to the bridge.

You see my life is shit at the moment and I’m doing things to change that.

Im being creative . Writing a book , playing in a band , publishing and selling my photography and creating blogs.

The problem is I don’t have someone to share this with.

Same shit has caused me to be alone again. I fucking hate it. I don’t think I can take the hurt again. I just want to be loved and love in return instead of being told I am when I’m not. Pretty much how all of my relationships end.. 

Just a down day today I suppose. 

Too Real.

As i get older I have less of a filter.

This doesn’t mean that i am walking around day to day offending people. It just means that if i don’t like you and you’ve given me reason for that i won’t hold back and i wont make the effort to change my opinion of you unless you begin to change.

I realised at work there is one member of staff who always asks “why are you always such a dick?” 

I thought about this quite a while then concluded that she is the only one who asks me and i have less patience with her because i don’t like her . She has qualitys that i would usually avoid but unfortunately i have to work with her.

Suppose if everyone started asking me that I’d be worried ?

Love.

Guess what I love???… You. Thanks for reading.

Now today I got caught up in a lot of hate and arguments and I was as bad as the people I was mad at.

So let’s talked about something I love and you share something you love in the comment section.

I love music. I love the variaty and I love how it brings people together. How it can make you feel and how one song can touch people in different ways.