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Exhausted.

This it so true right now.

I feel lonely a lot of the time at the moment and it’s something I’ve always stressed about. 

I’m 30 I have two kids and I want to share my life with someone. I had horrible break ups . I don’t no if I’ve got the strength to try again and if I do I’m not meeting anyone any time soon.

I seam to be stuck in a cycle at the moment. I can almost feel my anxiety bubbling under the surface ready to explode . 

I am for the most part controling it.

Work has been rough recently too lots of changes and things just generally going tits up.
I look forward to my sleep. Listing to my podcasts as I drift off….

Too Real.

As i get older I have less of a filter.

This doesn’t mean that i am walking around day to day offending people. It just means that if i don’t like you and you’ve given me reason for that i won’t hold back and i wont make the effort to change my opinion of you unless you begin to change.

I realised at work there is one member of staff who always asks “why are you always such a dick?” 

I thought about this quite a while then concluded that she is the only one who asks me and i have less patience with her because i don’t like her . She has qualitys that i would usually avoid but unfortunately i have to work with her.

Suppose if everyone started asking me that I’d be worried ?

Money.

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Interesting because I’m sure he ain’t doing too bad.

I’ve got to say money for me is the vain of my life. Have a think about things that you might want or dream for …. They cost money right. For me…

* House for me & kids.
* Car.
* Holiday.
*Gym.

They say money can’t buy happiness but I’m pretty sure I would be if I could tick this list off.

What do you think? Let us know in the comment section.

I am me.

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Hey I’m me , you’re you. Now we’re all introduced let me tell you what being me is like.
It’s pretty fun to be honest. I have my lows who doesn’t ( thanks anxiety) but the highs are the best.
When I was young 14/15 I think I started to find my identity . Pretty common . I had just heard the Ramones, Metallica and my friend playing guitar . Right then I new I wanted to explore music. Of course fast forward a year or so there is me Manson hoodie on , black nail varnish and long unkempt hair.
I spent a lot of my time trying to avoid fights but ending up in them because ” I wasn’t normal “.
To me they weren’t normal either but I suppose they bothered my less.

Now at 28 a dad, something’s are toned down but all in all I’m the same person with the same ideals I shared back then .
Basically normal…normal… Who wants to be normal.
Normal people , you’ve met them. There not happy. They are just drifting threw life.

The Vending Machine Gets It.

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I laughed at this when I first sore this and then realized the vending machine gets it.
I suppose at the moment I feel like I’m drifting.
My week is full . I work, in my free time I see my kids and have a band practice.
I’m single and I met someone . She’s pretty cool . She however doesn’t think so and suffers from anxiety worse than I do. So even if I don’t wanna give up on that it’s pretty much not going to happen. That sucks.

So yeah I’m left thinking is this it for me ? On some days I’m cool with that others not so much.

Do you find yourself thinking the same ? Have you any advice for me ?